My brain seems to constantly hum with thought. I can't help it. I can't turn it off. So, today, I will record it without judgment.
Here are my thoughts in the last 20 minutes:
- I wonder what it would be like to be thin. I haven't been that way since about 1993.
- Are thin people happier? Or are they really just grouchy because they deny themselves brownies?
- My kids fill me with wonder. I should make their lives more magical somehow. How?
- We should hang more fairy lights.
- We should take more walks in the woods and explore the unknown instead of walking from store to store in the mall and exploring the Gap.
- When did life stop being magical and start becoming ordinary?
- Would my life really be all that different if my parents had been absolutely perfect, no one ever made fun of me as a child, and I actually got my degree from college? Or would I still be pretty much the same person?
- Am I headed in the right direction?
- Will I ever learn that not EVERYONE is going to like me no matter how awesome I am?
- Should I be more girly?
- Will I ever be able to classify myself as an optimist?
- Does God really exist, or am I just an idiot?
- People often say you should never judge another person. But what if that person's just plain mean?
- I need to stop judging myself so much.
- One of these days, I will love myself as fiercely as I love my family and friends. Until then, maybe I should just fake it.
The end.
I think if you fake it, you'll start some great habits and perhaps eventually not have to fake it at all.
ReplyDeleteI'm the same way with the constant thoughts. Mr. Terrific was.telling me yesterday about hoe he let's his mind go blank when he's running, and I had to ask a zillion follow up questions because I couldn't grasp the concept og thinking about NOTHING.
Um, typos brought to you by my phone. Sigh.
ReplyDeleteThese last few posts are very happy making!!
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